Flaws and All...

May 26, 2018
2 min read

As I get older and learn more about myself I start to see things differently than the way I used to..

When I was child I always struggled with staying focused, and that truly hasn't changed much since becoming an adult. Actually it may be even more difficult!! I was never tested for ADHD, or ADD although I think my parents should have thought twice about it lol. It takes me along time to get started on certain tasks and even then it's still a struggle to JUST focus on that.

For the past month this had really taken a toll on me, I was beginning to become discouraged because I started to feel like nothing will ever be enough for me. I started to think I wouldn't be able to truly live out my passion due to this. I mean to you that may sound extreme, but to me it seemed so real.

Here I was thinking I finally starting to do something I love but, I couldn't stay focused on one task and I still had so many other ideas going through my head I started to second guess was this really my passion. I'm not sure if that has to do with my anxiety and just always being anxious about what's to come but it makes daily living such a hassle for me until about a week or two ago...

During my "me time" one day I realized that instead of resenting myself for this why not embrace it?

I realized that I was made this way and it wasn't a mistake, God doesn't make mistakes he made a masterpiece and I was born to conquer the world in more than one way.

From now on I am taking advantage of my "busy mind" , it's OK to have more than one passion and to invest in all of them. Who am I to limit myself?

It's okay to embrace what you make feel like is a flaw, but you can also work towards changing it in the process. Even though iv'e began to accept this I still refocus my energy when my mind begins to wander.

My journal has become my best friend, If i'm in the middle of something and I get a thought or two about something else I write it down and continue to complete my task. I also dedicate myself to one task and see it all the way through before moving on.

My self love journey is an on going process that I have to work towards EVERYDAY!

How is your journey going? Have you learned something new about you?

I would love to hear it!

Feel free to email me or comment something you are working to change or have learned to embrace!!!