Thoughts to myself..🗯

It becomes hard when you know what your working towards but it seems like its getting further and further away from you. I know I wanna be successful and quite frankly I know what it will take to get there, but why does it seem like im getting further & further away from my vision? 

I know I’m a thinker... So my mind is constantly thinking of 30 different things at once. To some this may sound like a good thing and don’t get me wrong it can be but lately it’s been causing a disturbance in my life. Sometimes I think of what it would be like to be able to silence my thoughts for a day.. Being a constant thinker makes it very hard to make decisions and be confident in them. I’m always worried if it’s the right one or being scared of committing to a decision in fear of what can come after or what i’m giving up. I’m learning to not be so hard on myself and just to go through the flow of life, experience what i’m supposed to and have fun even in the darkest of times. A lot of my worries and stresses come from battles with myself .. In focusing too much on how things will end up I loose sight of what’s to be done in front of me. The different trials that I have faced in the past month have made me realize that if I don’t keep my faith and if I don’t truly believe that success will be for me then my vision will continue to LOOK smaller& further away...